Stanley Kubrick

As I write this, I'm watching "Eyes Wide Shut". I'm a fan of mister Kubrick's work, especially the first 30 or so minutes of "2001". However after watching this movie and comparing it to his other works, it does appear to me that perhaps the best adjective to describe a lot of the scenes in Kubrick films is "ponderous". Seriously, the man has a gift for turning a 3 minutes scene into 10 minutes.

Also, there are a lot of great boobs in "Eyes Wide Shut". Oh and Tom Cruise has a big nose.

So the season is upon us again...

And I will be out there. I plan to put on several thousand miles this year because I have nothing better to do and I do love it so . Hopefully, there wont be many of these folks. Because it makes me sad when I see these giving the rest of us a bad name.

Wordless Wednesday

Last year around this time

God damn I had fun that day.

Mark my words...

We've seen a bunch of this kind of thing lately. Trust me, there's more coming. It's kinda of the nexus of "Too much pressure" meets "I can't find a way out of this" meets "Well, I've got a gun".

I'm a little enthralled by the prospect. It's interesting to see what happens when you deprive people of their dignity and their ability to make a living, but give them easy access to the tools of violence. Sure, it's insane... But the situation is getting insane for a lot of people and some of them can't see a better escape plan.

I'm kind of excited by the fact that things are melting down to the degree they are, and kind of afraid at the same time.

Huh.

Crap,

That's it. Crap. I've gone through over two years of bad luck now and I'm beginning to think there isn't an end to it. F**k.

Oh, one last thing.

I love Turbonegro to death, punk. Seriously, I have this tattooed on my arm. That being said, Valient Thorr kind of kicked Turbonegro's ass last Sunday.

Just sayin'.

I drank with the Valient Thorr guys, but I didn't get a photo. I do have a photo with Turbonegro's new drummer:



And a drum head autographed by the band.

I will have to say that next time Valient Thorr plays, I am ALL over it.

Wordless Wednesday

TMI or Why I've been absent

This is why. When I get into sticky situations, much like the one I'm in now, things that normally come naturally seem to take a ton of energy. Things like moving, reading, turning on my computer... Basically, everything but sleeping, watching old movies, and working out seems really hard. Welcome to the wonderful world of clinical depression. It's one of those thing I used to complain about other people claiming to have. "Get up off your ass and get to it"! Then, as seems to happen to me more often than not, I was afflicted with the problem I cursed others for having. Needless to say, I'm very empathetic to the problems of others these days. Anyway, in case anyone was wondering why I've been absent, that's it. Little power to do anything and a conscious attempt to stay away from media that's not telling me anything helpful.

So, what have I been up to? We'll, I've found that the more time I spend in the gym, the less I have to think... So I've gained back a lot of the muscle I lost earlier this year and I've become a bit of a cardio fiend. I like it. I feel stronger than I have in years and actually look better than I have in a long while. Yay! Besides that, it's just trying not to be a dick to Shannon and watching old movies... Oh, and playing Company of Heros.

I've also been looking for work, though not very hard. I found one place that seems perfect. I've interviewed with them twice. If for some reason fate decides to smile on me after kicking me in the nuts a few times, I may just wind up working for the type of organization I should have been working for all long, and that I thought I was working for at one point. If not, I'm open to anything and beginning to think that I might be done with Oregon for a while. We'll see.

About the most I've felt comfortable doing web wise is facebook... And I'm spotty at that too. It's just too easy to waste 3/4 of a day there. It has been fun to reconnect with people I thought I'd lost forever though.

Basically, I'm diving into things that make me happy, trying to find the best strategies for fighting depression (a tougher fight than I would have ever though. Makes cancer look like a walk in the park), and trying learn the lesson that life is obviously trying to hit me with. Seriously, you don't run into the things I've run into in the past 6 months or so for no reason... At least I want to to believe you don't. Yeah, sure part of it is "appreciate being alive" but I think there's another, more... important? louder? profound? IDK. There's some message there. I just haven't heard it yet and I'm kind of in a holding pattern until I do. I feel like I'm on the edge of something. It might be wonderful, it might be terrible, but it IS. I just have to find out how to meet it.

Anyway, I had an idea tonight that I thought might be fun. I was thinking about posting a request for people to suggest an activity a week for me to do, either here or on Facebook. You know, some sort of funky, random thing that no one has the time to do but everyone wants to.

I have the time. I have cameras. I have a partner in crime. I have a blog.

It might just be cool.

Thoughts?